How are you all hope, you will be all right during this pandemic.I apologize to all of you because I haven’t uploaded any posts for so long.You will find out the reason for this in a short time in farward lines because You all are very important to me and you are like my family, from which I share all my happiness and sorrow.All of you gave me so much love, I thank you wholeheartedly for that.
So today I am going to share with you what I have not done till today.still I’m just 20 years old . when I was about to turn 18, I got married.
In March, 2018 I completed my 12th and I got married on 7th July 2018. And I was married to an Arranged marriage which was done by family’s and consent.When I first came to know that Mom Dad had seen a boy for my wedding and he was coming to meet me, I was very scared.I was really very silly at that time.I could not understand what was happening to me?
Whatever the family members said, it was done to me.I felt like this, what is happening to me so far I have not even ventured out and seen the world. I tried to convince my parents that I am too young to get married right now. I am not ready for marriage. Please do not get me married now.But the family members did not agree. He had made up his mind that now he has to get me married.I am from Rajasthan, a state in India.Where girls are married soon without their will.And that’s why my grandfather soon found a Boy for me to get married.
Although I have not lived in Rajasthan since my childhood.I live with my parents in Gurugram district in Haryana, is also state in India and Gurugram is a developed city.
I was very scared the day I was going to see the boy.I did not even know what questions to ask. Despite that, the family took me to introduce him.We met in a temple where our whole family was together.We were seated on a bench in front and we talked for 5 minutes with difficulty.And after that 5 minute conversation,our relationship was confirmed.After that we both did not have any conversation till marriage, nor did we have each other’s contact number.on that time I was like pushing myself into a blind well.
And then my wedding preparations started.And on seeing this, I did not even know that the wedding day had come close.It was such a big day of my life and I did not even know the meaning of marriage properly. Everything was very strange , all emotions. All the customs.My life was about to connect with an unknown person……………..
And now my marriage has been almost 2 years.In these 2 years, I have never been out of the house alone.Now nothing remains the same.I used to stay awake all day. trailed off. We got married in such a hurry that we never knew properly the other one.There has been a lot of misunderstanding between us.We both think that we wish we were not married.
Then one day I came to know that I am pregnant.I didn’t want to be a baby yet.But still I did not have the courage to eat abortion pills.I felt that how can I kill my child who has not even come in this world.
Then And I have convinced.And today I have a very cute and lovely Prince Charming-like son.Truly becoming a mother is not easy. One has to go through many difficulties to become a mother.Perhaps this is why a mother loves her child the most in the whole world.My child is not from normal delivery.I have a child by c-section Major surgery.Never really thought about the operation.After the operation it felt like someone made me a dead corpse.
To become a mother really one has to endure a lot.And now I,m 20 year old Sometimes it seems that I have seen so much at a young age.Sometimes I feel pity for myself and sometimes feel so proud of myself that I showed so much courage.And I accepted everything I got in life.Always explained myself and tried to move forward.Perhaps this is the name of life.
I want to Thank you wholeheartedly that you took out your precious time and read this post.
Regards with Anju Rajput😇